I hate myself~~~~~~~~

I really hate myself sia~~~~~Feel like suicide but don have the guts to do it sian~~~~~~~~~~I just SPEnT one hr to look For my NOtezzzzz as exam is coming zzzzzzzzzzzz haiz Cannot stand myself sia my room is SO SOSO SOSO MESSY~~~~~~~~~~~~GOD PLS HELP ME~~~~ARHHHHH lol haha .............If really got reincarnation,i hope that i am born in a much richer famiy~~~~If really got reincarnation,i might hope that i can be my current parent de parent so i can tell dem "IN FUTURE WHEN U ARE PARENTS U WILL DEN KNOW HOW HARD IT IS"....lol...If really got reincarnation,i hope that i will be a fatty so i can finally shout out loud that I AM NOT A SKINNY ANYMore lol hahaha~~~~~~~~~~~``kk cya all News yr is coming WIsh everybody Becoming As smart As me ~~~~~~~ lol